hurt

Suddenly everything came back in my mind...

it reli feels like it happened just yesterday...
why? Why didnt this feel ceased and dissapear for good?

It's destroying me... and my new r/s...
It feels so so hurting...

and in my heart, i was calling out to my bf name.. hoping he would hear...
just as how the ex wld when i called out his name in my heart....

if i do dat now, i knw he will feel it... cuz the bond is still dere....

bf bf, where r u? i need u here with me so much....

Im sorry for all the things that happened between us....
I brought my past together with me and let it come btwn us...

But after wat u said this afternoon...
I just realised im being selfish....
Wat u told me reli brought me bck to Earth....
I realised all this while been dreaming that finally i've found the one..
but actually nope...

It was just an imagination...
there is no such thing...
isnt it??



Love,
nina

how sweeter can my sweet sweet november be?
I had an advanced surprise bdae party from my dearest bf...

he actually planned it early, and i never even suspected...
very very thoughtful and caring of him...
yah, never had a surprise party before...

the amazing thing is, he actually planned it with my family and frens.. and yah, they were good in sealing the plan to make sure i dun suspect anything... even my mum joined in the trick!
i would never suspect lah, cuz im too blur to notice anything at all.. lol!

no wonder he reli wanted to go out with me on saturday...
brought me to watch movie, den b& j @ dempsey... den to mt faber... our spot... where he will give me tons of surprises there... so now i knw the tricks.. if he's bringin me there... means he's gonna give me a surprise.. lol!

how can i not love him more and more each day... he did alot of things for me... that i've never felt for so long...



love,
nina